tidyupwoman asked
Is your career aspiration your dream job? If not why not? Why do you want to do you career? this is phrased badly.

My dream job would be to act. But that’s not going to happen.
I’d also like to be a clinical psychologist . But that’s probably not going to happen.
So I’d like to be a support worker on a ward somewhere for adolescents. :)

Ask me more questions?

I don’t mind what on.
Promise to answer every single one 100% honestly if I can

Off to the crisis house tomorrow, bit anxious . I e got used to the ward and now it’s a new place and people and scary.

Also struggling. Left my lecture early today because things were just no and it got too much and I’m such a failure.

I can’t adult, it’s too hard.

I have so much reading to do and zero concentration

Anonymous asked
What have you been up to?

Well today I went to uni! For the first time! It was very overwhelming and I have a lot to learn and do which is just argh but it was a bit exciting to so I’m holding on to that.

Going to the crisis house means I’ll be able to go to uni every day it’s on which means I won’t fall behind so that’s good.

It’s just going to be hard to do the required reading and stuff from there as i can’t take all my textbooks there. Well I could, it’s only one or two!

Thank you for the nice questions guys, really good distraction

Anonymous asked
How's being in hospital? Helpful?

It has been helpful yes, and unhelpful as they first switched me to a medication that either didn’t work or made everything worse. So once I was off that I started doing better.

I’ll be going to a crisis house on Monday which will be helpful too as there is lots of one to one support there which I apparently need right now,

Anonymous asked
What's your bmi now?

This counts as a stupid question so *bites*

Answer? I don’t know. I get weighed tomorrow.

Had no questions for ages!! Feeling lonely - promise I won’t bite unless you ask a particularly stupid question. :p

thispainisnever--ending asked
It worked to begin with and then after a while it was as if it had no effect on me, that's just my personal experience though. I hope it works for you

Thank you. Sorry it stopped working for you x

thispainisnever--ending asked
I was on the haloperidol for over a year and it made me sleep a lot the whole time I was on it

Oh dear! I guess it’s worth it if it works though. I’d rather be asleep than dealing with voices and not being able to sleep.

I think the Haloparidol is helping with the voices. But the sedation is awful. i FEEL LIKE I did when I was on quetiapine. I’m on split dose morning and night. 

Anyone been on 10mg and know how long the sedation lasts for?

Struggling win dissociation. I think I, getting on staffs nerves. I keep trying to leave. I don’t mean to. I’m just scared,

Anonymous asked
Oh you poor thing. That's far too tiny. I know it's hard to break through the thoughts especially when you have other things going on too but keep trying your hardest. Losing weight won't help solve the problems you face. I see your IP, can you ask staff to support you. Take good care love.

Thank you
I know it won’t solve any problems and I am trying my best I promise.
I feel so out of control with it that I don’t know what to do. I’m eating as much as I can manage but I know it’s not enough. It’s a combination of being scared of weight gain, voices and visual hallucinations making my food look disgusting, as well as depression and general lack of appetitie.

The staff help as m uch as they can. I talk to them about it and they encourage me to eat and such. But it’s not an ED ward so what they can do is limited.

Thank you for such a lovely message x

forgothowtowrite replied to your post“That’s not too low”
WHAT?! That’s ridiculously low! What are they on about? That’s so far below underweight and even the anorexia criteria you’re normally on bed rest at that point! ASSHOLE ANON
eloiseonthewater replied to your post“That’s not too low”
fuck off anon FUCK FUCK FUCK OFF! That is very underweight why are you being such an EVIL FUCKER and saying this to someone who is IN HOSPITAL!
thanks guys. i pretty much am on bed rest. I’m IP and don’t get to walk or do a lot 
I just needed someone to tell me it was fine to not lose more weight. But this anon did not help. i want validation. i am attention seeking. bitch 
And a woman on the ward said I was anorexic and this other guy said I didn’t look it. So that triggered me. 
Generally feeling poo about my body and shape right now. 
Anonymous asked
That's not too low

Thanks… Just the validation I was looking for.

I hope you understand sarcasm.

Anonymous asked
What's your bmi if you're struggling so much? Is it even that low or are you just saying you're struggling.

Weight does not define how much someone struggles.
TW numbers

Read more doesn’t work so don’t look down I just want validation, attention seeking bitch